by Tom (twitter:@TomDauber5sos)
5 seconds of summer. Or should I say, the band who saved my life?
long time ago, a monster started to grew inside of me (mentally I mean),
then I started to hate myself, and every single thing about myself, well it all came in the same time as my eating disorder, which wasn’t that fun at all. I became to a depressed person, the depression had taken over my life. I hate everything about my life, I felt alone, I cried till I fall asleep.
I thought that Physical pain will help me to forget my inner pain, it did help somehow, but when I actually think about it now, it just added more pain. I thought cutting my wrists is the solution, I was WRONG. It all went out of control, I felt even more alone, and no one knew about that, when nothing worked I tried to commit suicide, one time, two times, three times, four times, I just wanted to end my life, BUT I FAILD. And maybe there is a reason for why I have been failed to kill myself many times. MAYBE SOMEONE STILL WANT ME HERE. Maybe…
I returned back to cutting. I heared music that expressed my feelings, I even wrote some.
I looked over youtube and clicked at a band called. ‘5 SECONDS OF SUMMER’, I found my new addiction.
Instead of crying and cutting I listen to their music, to their voices… They made me laugh, smile, and fall inlove.
I decided I should stop cut myself, cause it will lead me to nothing. I drew a butterfly on my wrist and called it ASHTON.
And now (yesterday) I drew another one named LUKE
BASICALLY, THIS BAND SAVED MY LIFE. they proved that heros are not fictional cartoon charcters from comics or movies.
BUT THE BRIGHT SIDE IS, that nowdays I’m a smiley person (I still hide my feelings, but at least they are not the same feelings I used to have). my main goal is to MAKE PEOPLE SMILE. I try to enjoy life as much as I can.
I LOVE 5SOS, I WILL ALWAYS WILL.
and I’m going to tattoo the logo on my wrist.
♥
have a great day, I love you, I really do.
5 seconds of summer. Or should I say, the band who saved my life?
long time ago, a monster started to grew inside of me (mentally I mean),
then I started to hate myself, and every single thing about myself, well it all came in the same time as my eating disorder, which wasn’t that fun at all. I became to a depressed person, the depression had taken over my life. I hate everything about my life, I felt alone, I cried till I fall asleep.
I thought that Physical pain will help me to forget my inner pain, it did help somehow, but when I actually think about it now, it just added more pain. I thought cutting my wrists is the solution, I was WRONG. It all went out of control, I felt even more alone, and no one knew about that, when nothing worked I tried to commit suicide, one time, two times, three times, four times, I just wanted to end my life, BUT I FAILD. And maybe there is a reason for why I have been failed to kill myself many times. MAYBE SOMEONE STILL WANT ME HERE. Maybe…
I returned back to cutting. I heared music that expressed my feelings, I even wrote some.
I looked over youtube and clicked at a band called. ‘5 SECONDS OF SUMMER’, I found my new addiction.
Instead of crying and cutting I listen to their music, to their voices… They made me laugh, smile, and fall inlove.
I decided I should stop cut myself, cause it will lead me to nothing. I drew a butterfly on my wrist and called it ASHTON.
And now (yesterday) I drew another one named LUKE
BASICALLY, THIS BAND SAVED MY LIFE. they proved that heros are not fictional cartoon charcters from comics or movies.
BUT THE BRIGHT SIDE IS, that nowdays I’m a smiley person (I still hide my feelings, but at least they are not the same feelings I used to have). my main goal is to MAKE PEOPLE SMILE. I try to enjoy life as much as I can.
I LOVE 5SOS, I WILL ALWAYS WILL.
and I’m going to tattoo the logo on my wrist.
♥
have a great day, I love you, I really do.